❤ Wednesday, November 4, 2009 ❤
my mOoD wAs sUpEr dOwN 2dAe..
dUnnO y aFtEr wEn NP stUdy wif dArLiNg & eRiC,,
i rEcAll lOts oF pAsT hAppy mOmEnts tt miie & "hiM" uSe 2 cHiLL at NP..
hAlf wAy wOrKiNg my tEaRs jUx cNt cOntROl & rOll dOwN ='(
1 oF my cOllEagUe sAw my eyes wAs sO rEd & aSkeD wAt hAppEn..
i tOld hEr tt i wAs jUx tOo tiReD =X
i tOtAlly fEEl sO hOpElEsS!!
fAiLeD 2 stOp tiNkiNg oF e hAppy mOmEnt tt "wE" spEnt..
mAyb hE's e 1st gUy/eX-bf tt bRiNg miie lOts oF jOyS..
he's e 1st eX-bf eCoUrAgE miie alot,,
tEaCheS miie lOts oF tiNgs,,
bRoUgHt miie 2 lOts oF pLaCes tt i nV bEEn tO,,
spEndiNg pAtiEnt oN miie,,
giVeN lOts oF lAuGhTer,,
sUrpRiSe & hAppiNeSs..
aNd mOrE.............................
wEn eVa i pAsSeS by sOmE pLaCes,,
i sUrE rEcALL lOts oF tiNgs..
dUnnO y my tEaRs wiLL stArt rOlliNg oUt oF eyes..
dOeS "hE" hV e sAmE fEEliNg aS wAt i fEEl??
oR 4 "hiM" iS jUx nth..
mAyb "hE" iS hAppiLy eNjOyiNg nW..
I REALI HATE MYSELF 4 LOVING U!!!!!!!!!!
y cNt my bRaiN jUx stOp rEcAlliNg tHoSe mEmOriEs!!
y cNt my bRaiN lyk a cOmpUteR,,
wHiCh i cOuLd jUx rE-fOrMAT e sAddnEsS aWaY!!
nO mAttEr wAt e oNli tiNg i cN dO nW iS,,
wiShEs hiM gD lUcK & hAppy aLwAeS..
i pRoMiSe tt i wiLL tRy 4gEt hiM fRm nW..
i nid 2 gEt mysElf oUt oF tiS miSeRaBle liFe!!!!!!!!
my cLiQuE hV bEEn eCoUrAgiNg miiE,,
tRyiNg 2 pErsUdE & pUll miiE oUt oF tiS miSeRaBle liFe..
rEaLi appReCiAtE & tHaNkiEx 2 tHeM..
i wiLL try my bEsT 2 stEp oUt my 1st stEp!!
i rEaLi hV eNoUgH oF tiS sAd & miSerAbLe liFe..
i wAnt my hAppiNeSs bAcK!!
i wAnt my jOy!!
i wAnt my lAuGhTeR!!
i wAnt mysElf bAcK 2 hW i uSe 2 bE!!
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Blogged @ 11/04/2009 06:35:00 PM
